Brilio.net - Kalina Ocktaranny is often the subject of public discussion because of her household relationship. The ex-wife of Deddy Corbuzier is known to have been married and divorced 4 times. Currently, she is reported to have been in a 5-time marriage relationship.
Because of frequent divorces, Kalina admitted that she was ashamed of her son, Azka Corbuzier. Because of that, she said she didn't want to involve Azka too much in her life. Moreover, the shame was also compounded by the fact that Kalina admitted that she was not a good mother. She revealed this during a podcast with Melaney Ricardo.
"I don't want to involve my child too much. I'm ashamed of my child. Embarrassed of Azka. I might not be a good mother for Azka," said Kalina, quoted by brilio.net from Melaney Ricardo's YouTube on Wednesday (28/8).
Kalina Ocktaranny cries and apologizes
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Kalina admitted that she really wanted to get pregnant again and have a child. Not without reason, she wanted to prove that she could be a good mother to her child.
"Like yesterday I really wanted to. I had another child like that. I want to have another child because I want to prove that I'm not a bad mother either," she said.
Remembering her past, Kalina said that she used to really devote her life to her child, Azka. Before divorcing Deddy Corbuzier, Kalina was the one who took care of Azka without a babysitter. In fact, she admitted that she was willing to breastfeed her child until he was 3 years and 1 month old.
Kalina Ocktaranny cries and apologizes
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"Maybe I only took care of Azka for 7 years. But in those 7 years I really devoted myself to my child. I never went anywhere," he said.
"When I was with Azka, I wasn't separated yet. I really took care of my child. I gave my child breast milk until 3 years and 1 month, which maybe other people didn't have that long. I took care of my child without using a babysitter," he continued.
Furthermore, Kalina understands that her child has forgotten about being together with Kalina. Moreover, when they were separated, her child was still very young. She also understands that her child has his own judgment of her.
"Maybe Azka forgot. There are many things he forgot. When I was still living with him. And he said that he did forget many things. Because he was still young. I don't blame him," he said.
Kalina also realized that she was not a proud mother at the moment. Moreover, she was often the subject of conversation because she had repeatedly remarried and divorced. For what happened, Kalina apologized to Azka.
Kalina Ocktaranny cries and apologizes
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"Mama apologizes if what you have done has embarrassed Azka. Maybe I have nothing to be proud of. There is nothing in my life that my child can be proud of," said Kalina.
"And what's even more painful is that many people probably don't know that I'm Azka's mother," she continued.
However, Kalina still expressed her love for her son. She admitted that Azka was the only person who would not disappoint her.
"Maybe the only person in this world who will never disappoint me is Azka. Mama, having Azka is the greatest gift from God that God gave to Mama. And Mama is proud of Azka," concluded Kalina.