Brilio.net - News of the bullying received by a young doctor in the Specialist Doctor Education Program (PPDS) at Diponegoro University (Undip), ARL (30), continues to attract public attention. He is suspected of committing suicide by injecting anesthetic fluid into his body because he often experienced bullying by his seniors while undergoing PPDS at Dr. Kariadi Hospital, Semarang.
In addition to the bullying factor, according to police sources, ARL ended his life because he found it difficult to follow his lessons. This is in line with the explanation of the victim's mother and the findings of ARL's diary which was re-uploaded by the TikTok account @shella_dr.
It was revealed that before ending his life, ASL had complained about the hardship of pursuing specialist education, as well as the fatigue of facing pressure from his seniors. At that time, he felt alone without anyone who could help him.
photo: TikTok/@shella_dr
" If I have to endure it any longer. I'm alone, I'm fighting alone. No one helps me. I don't want to be in this pain any longer. May God forgive me. God, I'm sick. I beg for a place to go home ," she wrote, which was re-uploaded by the TikTok account @shella_dr, Friday (16/8).
It is known that he received an official fee to take an anesthesia master's degree at Undip. Every day, he works at RSUP dr Kariadi Semarang. So, he has to divide his time quite tightly to do two things at the same time. This is what makes him feel unable.
" Go home early, don't just sit around. I'm in terrible pain tonight. I can't continue this cycle any longer ," he added further.
He also questioned the injustice he felt to God. In fact, the victim also questioned the reason he accepted God's choice to live if in the end he had to bear this heavy burden.
photo: TikTok/@shella_dr
" Does God hate me? I always scream for help. But why was I left alone? Was I born just to end? Which art of life did I see before that I agreed to choose to be born? " he explained further.
However, the victim admitted that he did not immediately give up. ASL said that he had tried his best to survive the ordeal he experienced. But, in the end he could not stand it and chose to give up.
photo: TikTok/@shella_dr
" I didn't just give up without trying. I've endured a lot. I'm just a human being. It was too much for me. It hurt so much. The physical burden was so great. I wanted to stop ," he wrote in his diary.