Brilio.net - The disaster that befell Ayu Ting Ting's family continues to receive public attention. Including the condition of her younger sister, Assyifa Nuraini alias Syifa who lost her little son, Rayaz Zoltan Fachrizal or familiarly called Baby Zoltan some time ago.
Baby Zoltan died after being rushed to the hospital due to incessant vomiting and defecation . The baby, who was 55 days old at the time, was dehydrated.
It has been seven days since Baby Zoltan's passing, but the sense of loss is still very real for Syifa and her husband, Nanda Fachrizal. Through a post on her personal Instagram account, Syifa shared several portraits of togetherness with Baby Zoltan, while also conveying her heart full of sadness.
"Inna lillahi wa inna ilaihi raji'un. August 31, 2024 Rayaz Zoltan Fachrizal passed away. Mom's handsome son left mom forever," wrote Syifa, quoted by brilio.net from the Instagram account @syifaasyifaaa, Sunday (8/9).
photo: Instagram/@syifaasyifaaa
Syifa expressed how devastated she was when the doctor said that Baby Zoltan could not be saved. The deep sadness she felt could not be described in words.
She admitted that the process of letting go was the hardest test that she, her husband, and her entire family had to go through. Even so, Syifa still tried to accept the bitter reality sincerely.
"Both legs, both hands, and tears were all felt, son, when the doctor told papa that we had to let you go. It was a very difficult test for mama, for papa and the family to let you go forever," he continued.
The deep sorrow is also reflected in how Syifa tells of her loving efforts to make her child recover. Despite her best efforts, fate said otherwise.
"Mommy is handsome, I'm sorry mommy, sorry for everything, son. Mommy's love for you can't be expressed, son," he said.
"Mama has tried to make you well, son, but Allah said otherwise. Allah loves you more, son, so you don't feel the pain anymore," he added.
photo: Instagram/@syifaasyifaaa
This loss left Syifa heartbroken. Moreover, Baby Zoltan was supposed to celebrate his second birthday on September 7, 2024.
"Mommy is sure that you are in heaven, but I can't bear it, son, for you to leave me forever. It hurts and destroys all the feelings in my heart that I can't express anymore, son," she continued.
Syifa hopes to be given strength to live the days ahead without her child. Although it is undeniable that this loss has left a deep wound in her heart.
"Oh my God, it hurts so much and I am devastated to have to lose my child like this. Please be strong, son, I hope you can live and continue your life without Zoltan anymore," she concluded.
photo: Instagram/@syifaasyifaaa
Every memory with her little son will always be in her mind, and even though Zoltan is gone, a mother's love and affection will never disappear. Syifa also prays that Zoltan will get the best place in the sight of Allah and hopes to be able to continue life even without the presence of her beloved child.
"Zoltan will always be in the hearts of mom, dad and big sister Mehra, son. Be happy in heaven, mom Syifa. Al-fatihah," said Syifa, closing her heartfelt outpouring.